Lisa Fails to Turn Up

8:15 PM
6.30 Woke up. Exercised (slightly different to yesterday). Shaved and showered. Breakfasted. I think I am coming down with a viral cold. Left house 8.35am.

8.50 Arrived at training centre. Lisa never turned up. She never rang in said the staff. It worried me. I sent her an Internet SMS to her mobile. During morning break I tried the in-house phonebooth ONLY TO FIND THE BLOODY THING IS BROKEN and HASN’T BEEN WORKING FOR MONTHS.

12.30 Half day. I cycled to Lisa’s house and rang her doorbell. No one answered. I cycled to a phonebooth and gave her a call on her house phone - answer machine. I called her mobile - answer machine - I left a message. I cycled home.

4pm No news. I sent her sister an email asking if Lisa is ok.

19.54 Still no news.

This whole day has been confusing. I don’t know what to think. She was in perfect health yesterday. I can’t help but think about the worst case scenario - but if she has been hurt then surely her sister would have contacted me? The best case scenario is that she is emotionally hurt - still worrying but it would be nice to know. It’s possible she forgot to call in - but without knowing I worry and worry and worry.But I am stuck between thoughts for her health and of intruding. After all I knocked on her door without being invited.

My nephews are here. It’s sad because even while playing with them I am constantly missing Lisa. I’d love a joint game of Hide-and-seek with her family (her and her goddaughter) and my family (me and my nephews). I imagined me catching Lisa and us rolling in the grass laughing, enjoying the touching, the loving, the sheer pleasure of shared emotion. Then the kids jump in. Isn’t that just perfect. Still only a dream.