LISA STAYS FOR LUNCH

7:40 PM
6.30 I woke up. I did some exercises. I showered. I dressed. I breakfasted. I left at 8.36am.
8.50 I arrived at the training centre. Lisa came in soon after. The morning went well and we had lots of laughs. I loved the brief touches. I loved the laughs we had - but the touches are electric. I examined her hair closely for the first time ever.

Yahoo said shoe fetish is normal so I told her and the look she had told me she had a shoe fetish. She has 3 stories/tiers of shoes - some she has never worn :) . She has boots, trainers and slip-on sandle/shoes for summer.

Breaktime: She asked me about the exercises I do as she wants to start. I maybe older I maybe overweight but she finally has realised I am fitter and more supple than her. I suggested she get a bike - she didn’t like that idea and I don’t think she’d ever jog. She’s hoping to get a full driving licence soon - though she is not currently taking any lessons.

After break we carried on in the same vein - laughter, her smiling and recalling stuff. It was the happiest I ever recall seeing her in the whole time she has been here. She said she was staying in for lunch. I asked her where she goes normally for lunch. She says sometimes to her friends house, sometimes to a friend who works in a coffee shop and sometimes off with her boyfriend (who works). Her coffee shop friend has gone on a 1 week holiday to Malaga. So maybe I have one week to make an impression on what she has been missing by avoiding me.

Lunch: WE WALKED INTO THE CANTEEN TOGETHER - then she left to go to the loo :) . I had a sandwich and some apples. She had a cake and crisps and later some of my apple too ;) . Talk was quiet as the canteen was pretty full. She talked to her sister on the phone (who is in Portugal).

Her sister was in bed with an eye problem, is enjoying her school, is getting a new set of friends, is getting lifts to school with a boy who likes her, is recently split from a 4 year relationship, has been back in Portugal for 4.5 years, is unemployed and gets no state help, is living with her parents, hated living in this country and find being home better despite all the above problems, is looking for work. I asked Lisa if her sister knew that the boy who drove her had feelings for her sister. Lisa said "A girl knows when a boy has feelings for her."
Lisa even mentioned my name to her sister and knowing how close these 2 girls are I would love to know what her sister knows. I wonder how much Lisa is willing to admit even to herself regarding her feelings and me.

All the time Lisa was talking she was munching. As I mentioned it to her she said her sister had been telling Lisa what Lisa was eating as Lisa was munch/talking :) . I told her a few kid’s jokes and she with a wistful look said her goddaughter would like me. I had told her some of the incidents that my nephews had caused of a funny nature.

In terms of making a lunch time impression I don’t feel I made a sufficient enough impact. But on the positive side she seem comfortable enough - she wasn’t dying to get away. I enjoyed seeing her laugh as she was talking to her sister. It was comfortable - says it all.

After Lunch we had a group exercise. We all got to walk around the building. It was fun cause I had so much close contact with Lisa (some touches she instigated, some I did). We had fun and laughs.

Hometime: I walked her to her bus stop. We chatted. She asked if my brother lived with me (I said sometimes). She said do you own your own house or rent. I said well it’s my mothers house, even though I helped pay for it but it’s in her name and she lives with me. I wonder if this came as a shock. She still laughed a few times later on as she was waiting for her bus.
The bus came she jumped on (no hug, no peck, no kiss - so near yet so far). The boyfriend splitting omens are coming in droves yet she is still no nearer too splitting from her current one.

I did try to call her later but her phone went into answer machine so I hung up.

I enjoyed today. Both on a friend level but more so on the level of possibility of love returned. She was really happy which lighted my spirits and my heart. The real girl shone today - not the shell of reality that has been suffering since I first met her. I even mentioned the happiness to her and she laughed it off saying, "well if you talk I talk". I said no something had changed in her and she said, "my PMS is over". Perhaps I thought but I wonder what decision had she made at the beginning of the day and was she sticking to it, having lived the day and gathered new facts?

Tomorrow will be an interesting day. She is being picked up by her friend and is staying at her goddaughter’s house Friday but is currently planning to return alone to her flat on Saturday. I would love to do something with her on Saturday - perhaps I’ll mention it tomorrow. I picture us in a children’s park me pushing Lisa on a swing and TOUCHING HER BUM :) . Major hard-on issues.

This blog has made it on to GOOGLE :) "The lament of Lisa".