Monday, 20 March 2006
Lisa - The Smile of Diamonds.

In the morning I journeyed to “The Placement Company”. They had not considered “content” for their web-site. So I left it with them and said they should give me a call when they were ready. I then left and journeyed to “The Training Company”.

There I met Lisa. I said Hi and we talked a bit. Once again she didn’t go into detail as to what she did over the weekend. I let her know what I got up to.

I was allowed to go home at lunchtime. I said bye to Lisa and she responded. Surprisingly as I walked down the road, I looked back and saw Lisa running towards me. She was a little disappointed, as she’d hoped to make me jump. We walked together into town. She had an interview later that day - so just as well I decided to go home cos she’d not be there in the afternoon. She asked me how I was and I kept saying fine (only later did I wonder if she was looking for the truth - i.e. my heart is aching with longing for you heart song response).
I assumed she was heading for her usual lunch appointment and said bye at a road junction. She then said I should give her a call for a good time to meet up. I suggested Thursday (I casually mentioned later that day but got no response) and she seemed doubtful but agreed. As I left I wondered what it all meant.
It was much later that I realised I had assumed she was going to a lunch meet. See Lisa lets very little emotion through her shield. Maybe she wanted to spend more time - since I had plenty to spare. But I could be wrong. This has all the hallmarks of a Hollywood misunderstandings movie.

Later that evening I managed to see her online but we failed to communicate. Our times went awry and my last message was “see you when I see you”. I have no idea whether she feels hurt by something I did earlier in the day.


Tuesday, 21 March 2006
Spring Resolve

No contact from Lisa at all today.

I’ve been doing lots of thinking. I am going to try once again to connect. I will try and ensure Lisa and I get time together. I hope we do meet up Thursday - after all she pulled out of last Saturday. This time I’ll let her know, if she asks - she already knows since my last email said “I only think of you between breaths”. Maybe she wants to hear it. But when we do talk people we have to work with usually surround us. Lunchtimes she never makes time for “us”. Evenings, despite my best efforts, she has refused to meet up - it’s been 2 months.

Play it again, Sam.