Chicken POX
May the fourth be with you

Since the last entry Lisa has not tried to contact me in anyway. I miss her but the evidence of her lack of respect (or disinterest) is overwhelming. I contacting her, in my eyes, appears stupid. If I genuinely felt I stood a chance I would. But she’s never confirmed any of the “signs”, I felt, she displayed. I fool myself into hoping that she has this GIANT wall around her heart and that if one can surmount it and get in then she will give that individual infinite love. But surely if she is waiting for someone to come over the wall it would be someone she encourages NOT DISCOURAGES.
I also miss "the friend I almost made".

She has also brought to light something I did not do as a child. I never made the right set of friends in my local school. The only friends I had were for during school hours. Consequently when I return to my hometown I find myself alone. I’m seeking ways of remedying this but so far have no answers. The idea of meeting someone over the Internet seems so alien and I haven’t completed any of my searches for friends or loves. Perhaps in hindsight Lisa was a school hours friend - but this time I did try.

I contacted L2, via email last week. She replied saying it was her last day at the company and she’d failed to get the job she’d wanted. Unfortunately she used her company email address and so I no longer have a contact email for L2 - which perhaps is what she intended. Sad.

On the family side: My sister has started her chemotherapy. The lil guy is one week over a bout of chicken pox. His face and body is full of chicken pox scars. He was here this past weekend. He brought his new bike - a full pedal cycle with stabilisers. On Saturday he completed an 8mile trip with me (SUPER BOY). He was not even visibly affected the next day with fatigue. He loved it so much he proposed we do it again on Sunday (it’s OK I declined).

On the Work Trial I like the people there. I hate the admin involved. I don’t think much of the salary. However a bird in the hand... They seem to like me. I will apply for the upcoming vacancy. I just hope my ability for picking up vibes is better in job hunting than love hunting.