Teresa


A Rope - I pull, she pulls - signifies a relationship getting closer.

Initially she pulled. Then she let go. We play pool a few times and the distance seemed to get further. At this point I decided to give up. The party came and she gave a good tug and we went swimming. Since then she's slowly letting the rope slip. Only now, I'm hooked. As she slips away she takes a part of my heart and soul.

I'm pulling harder (maybe too hard - too frightening for her?). My feelings are out and she knows.

She says she has issues. She looks at me though contact lenses coated with her past boyfriends and her father.
It seems her father only sees the negatives in people. I thing there is a danger that Teresa maybe doing this too. Blinded by the perceived negatives you ignore the major positives.
Positives like: How do they make you feel? Are they touchy-feely? Do they give you love? Do they criticise you for being you? Are they trying to change you? Do they crowd you? Do they want the same things as you (e.g. kids)? Do they share the same tastes as you or most of them? We both don't smoke (I hope).

One negative (from her point of view) is age - who knows what will happen tomorrow? Live for today - enjoy whatever time we are given! Better 1 day of love than 2 years of "what if".
Another negative is she's listening to others - the other has a string of "failed relationships". How does having a string of failures qualify you to give relationship advice?
Another negative: My cold hands and feet.

But perhaps I'm deluding myself. If someone is looking for negatives would that not imply that the spark of love is absent?

For me: She's part of every thought. When I'm not busy she's in my plans. A queue of "what ifs" parade through my head.

For her: Is it the same? I suspect not.